Do you ever wonder this question? I am contemplating it today. Actually, I'm not contemplating too terribly much because I'm much too tired. This week has been a doozy.
On Sunday, I actually went out shopping for some Christmas items. I'm not sure how long we spent in the first store, but it was at the second store where I admitted (at one point) that my brain was tired and I couldn't think clearly. When asked if I wanted to go home, I said no. I wanted to rest (my mind) just a bit and make a decision. Rob was very patient with me and we ended up leaving much later, after I had make my decisions and purchases.
Monday, I participated on a phone "interview" helping someone with a project. It was really a very long conversation which I was surprised to see lasted more than an hour by the time we hung up. Of course, I had kids to teach later in the day.
Tuesday was a simple day, primarily about playing with one of the items I had purchased and then teaching.
Wednesday, I had to get up early (for me) for a 9am hair appointment. I knew that it would be a long one since we were planning to do some highlights and color (yes, I'm pushing back against the gray). I left there at 11am. Then, I went back to one of Sunday's stores to ask for a gift receipt for the item I had purchased. I should have thought to get it Sunday but wasn't thinking quite clearly at the time.
After getting the extra receipts, I went to another store to view a competing item to help me decide if I wanted to return the first item or not. Nope, I'm sticking with my first choice. Then I went to the nearby pet store to find some new toys for the kiddos. After that I needed to stop at the local music store to pick up some items I promised to look for and to find selections appropriate for this spring's solo festival for the horn students of varying levels of ability.
Anyways, I finally got home sometime before 2pm, needed to eat lunch and chill, and be ready to teach at 3:30pm. I was understandably tired after all of that. I felt "normal" tired, I thought.
Yesterday, I had to get up extra early to get downtown DC to Union Station to catch a train to New Jersey. We were making good time when disaster struck. An accident had shut down Constitution Ave. and thus blocked our route to the train station. After trying to figure out which metro station we were closest too, and what it would take to get to Union station from there, I decided to just get to the train station and take the next train (an hour later). It cost me more for the ticket but I got to the destination in time to scarf some lunch very quickly before I was needed.
Then in New Jersey, I participated in an event during which I seemed just as normal and active as anybody else. Nobody could see my diseases although I talked about them. I was the perfect example of the "but you look so good" syndrome. At 5:30pm I was sitting on the train to come back to DC. I think I walked in my front door at around 8:45pm.
I felt tired last night, but today I'm extra, crazy, must be the MS or RA, insane tired. It's the - I don't even want to get up to get something to drink although I'm really thirsty and probably dehydrated - tired. It's the - I can't walk a straight line or can hardly lift my legs high enough to climb the stairs - tired. It's the - how do people do this stuff and still function - kinda tired.
So I've completely forgotten what true "normal" tired feels like. But I guess the slight bonus to this is that my legs have a gentle tingling throughout which feels kinda soothing at this point. It kinda "feels" like white noise under the skin. Ahhhhh....