Why is it when you want to be alone that your phone won't stop ringing?
Or when you just want to go online that your computer connection goes kaput?
These are the questions which have plagued me the past few days. I've had such great ideas for blogging, but couldn't get online. Which also means that I've been disconnected from 'the world' where email and other bloggers live. It's hard to imagine how torturous this has been (and is probably will continue to be as I've finally resorted to establishing a dial-up connection for now.)
Then last night, all I wanted to do was to be quiet and calm after the first day back to teaching since Joshua passed. But guess what I got.....the endless phone calls. Aarghh. It's really hard to sound sweet and polite when what you want to do is throw the phone at the wall.
I guess some of my sadness is moving into veiled anger and irritability. Such is the nature of grief I suppose.
And finally today (or rather yesterday) absolutely NO ONLINE computer activity. Double aarghh!! So here I am though using a dial-up, needing to call the appropriate tech service people AGAIN to try to figure out what has gone wrong.
But anyway, I wanted to let folks know....I'm still here....sorta.
And to do it justice the Carnival of MS Bloggers may be late in coming, but it will be coming!!!!
Finally, Rob and I are going on a road trip this weekend. So I'll be absent again for a few days. But I shall return...I promise.